Sunday, April 11, 2010

She's Baack! Tina Fey Skewers Caribou Barbie Again

Sarah Failin' has been all over the news and the country lately with her ditsy, folksy shtick that she hopes will propel her to the Republican presidential nomination and a new address at 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue in 2013.

Was perusing the Aunt Jemima's Revenge blog earlier today and I cracked up when I saw this video from last night's SNL show.

It's Tina Fey reprising her Emmy Award winning parody of a certain failed half term Alaskan governor pimping a Sarah Palin Network.

Shh. Don't give the chillbilly any ideas she's not capable of coming up with on her own.



In the meantime, you can peruse the blog Sarah Palin Truth Squad and The Mudflats for updated news about the Wild Alaskan Dingbat as Rep Alan Grayson (D-FL) calls her.


H/T Aunt Jemima's Revenge

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Cop Caught On Tape Beating Duanna Johnson On Trial

Bridges McRae, the former Memphis po-po who administered the beatdown of the late Duanna Johnson in the Shelby County Jail, is now trying to avoid a lengthy stretch of jail time himself.

He has been charged with a civil rights violation and is currently on trial in a Memphis federal court for what took place that night. If McRae is convicted, he's facing ten years in Club Fed.

 

All I have to say is may Duanna Johnson now receive the justice that was denied her during her lifetime.

The Conservative 'Dry As Dust' Religion


Any religion which professes to be concerned with the souls of men and is not concerned with the slums that damn them, the economic conditions that strangle them, and the social conditions that cripple them, is a dry-as-dust religion.

Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

That quote describes not only the conservative movement as a whole, but conservative denominations of the various world religions.

I've been increasingly concerned about the conservatization and fundamentalist rhetoric coming out of the mouths of leaders of the various leading world religious denominations such as Roman Catholicism and Christianity, just to name two.

I've been displeased about the increasing frequency that they concern themselves with protecting the powerful against the powerless.

I'm not happy about their deafening silence when it comes to speaking truth to power about civil rights abuses, but they always got something increasingly stupid to say about moral issues.

In addition, what they call moral issues conveniently lines up with 'white wing' politicized choices about what is and isn't a moral issue.

It's maddeningly wedded to a disgusting 'prosperity gospel' being pimped in their arena sized churches that claims if you're poor, God is displeased with you.

Excuse me?

Seems like the only economic conditions conservachurches are concerned with are lining their own pockets, the superwealthy or the corporations and right wing politicians they support.

And don't even get me started about the immoral behavior they engage in while they hypocritically demonize it for others.

It's become abundantly clear over the last twenty years since Saint Ronald of Reagan became president that they and the conservative movement don't care about the poor, the uninsured, the homeless, anyone that isn't a white male and persecuted minorities. They gleefully participate in the demonization of them and the people who courageously stand up to critique this travesty of injustice.

When their demonization manifests itself into murderous violence directed at the marginalized groups they disparage, they either blame the victim or have nothing to say about it.

Is it any wonder why your conservachurches are experiencing flatlined or negative attendance growth? Is is any wonder why the young people you ran through and miseducated in your private 'Christian' academies are turning away from your 'dry as dust' organized religions in droves?

Conservatives have turned the word 'Christian' into a synonym for racist, ignorant, neo-Luddite, warmongering, gun-toting, Republican voting know nothings.

Thinking people, those of us who give a damn about humanity and young people increasingly don't want to be associated with that label.

Maybe except in Fulton, Mississippi.

You conservanegro ministers aren't off the hook here either.

You have taken a proud tradition of a Black church that actively fought two centuries for our freedoms and emasculated it. You now prostate yourselves to the same racist white conservative ministers and politicians that fought our civil rights movement for your own personal and political gain.

You have become the Pharisees and Sagicees. You are traitors to the Black community as well for facilitating the injection of the anti-gay hate that has long been a tradition of white fundamentalist churches into our community.

By doing so for your own selfish gains, you have put the Black community in the uncomfortable position for the first time in our 400 year history in the Americas of being seen as civil rights oppressors instead of civil rights warriors.

What you conservafools are doing is reprehensible. You're sowing bitter seeds of disharmony and discord that we don't need in a multicultural society that you will reap a negative harvest from.

You conservatives of all ethnic groups are to blame for turning a peaceful, socially conscious religion into an opiate for the conservative Fox watching masses.

And we liberal Christians are to blame for allowing this crap to happen on our watch in the first place.

So no, I don't believe in your conservative version of God or your Apostle Paul quoting representatives of it. You and your conservative religion and movement represent precisely what Dr. King presciently said it was, dry as dust.

You are also immoral, unjust and sacrilegious.

Friday, April 09, 2010

Shut Up Fool! Awards-Justice Stevens Retiring Edition

Well, we knew it was going to happen sooner or later, but soon to be in eleven days 90 year old Supreme Court Justice John Paul Stevens (who votes with the liberal wing) is stepping down in July.

That means that President Obama gets another chance to replace a liberal member with a younger justice while we wait for one of the conservatives like Scalia, Kennedy or Scalia's ventriloquist dummy Uncle Thomas to retire.

It's also another salient reason why President Obama needs to be reelected in 2012.

Thanks for your service Justice Stevens, you will be missed.

So let's get this week's honoree for the Shut Up Fool award. The usual suspects of Beck, O'Reilly and Hannity. The tag team of Palin and Bachmann. Liz Cheney, Faux News, Gov. Bob McDonnell. The comedic hijinks of the Southern Rethuglican Leadership Conference

But we can only choose one winner this week, and it's going to be embattled GOP chair and spokesellout Michael Steele.

Mikey was quick to dismiss President Carter's comments that conservative opposition to President Obama was because of his race.

Now that the pump is on the other foot and he's getting fast and furiously flying criticism form Republicans about the unfolding stripper scandal, his lavish spending of GOP money on private jets and four star hotels, and calls for his resignation are starting to come in, what did Mikey do?



You're Black when it's convenient for you to be Black. Every time he opens his mouth, he justifies my selection for the 2009 Shut Up Fool of the Year award.

Michael Steele, Shut the Hell Up, Fool!

Juiced-Up Gay Transphobic Bullies With Mouthpieces

TransGriot Note: From my shero, attorney and trans historian Kat Rose of ENDABlog.

Interesting new developments in the Israel Luna vs Trans community battle over his TOTWK movie. It mirrors a situation I went through last year when I called out a now defunct blog for their transphobia and racism, the bigots tried similar intimidation tactics and brought the wrath of the blogosphere down upon them.

Take it away, Katrina!


Wow – this is really choice. With a Tribeca-supplied dimebag of fake legitimacy pulsing through their veins – amplifying its existing faux-bravery reminiscent a schoolyard bully with a legion of anti-PC (when it comes to trans issues anyway) gay Eddie Haskels backing him up – the Luna-Ticks ascend to a new high in low.

From a Facebook posting from truly legitimate Texas trans activist Vanessa Edwards Foster:

Among other nice commentary from supporters of Israel Luna’s latest piece of film art (or something) comes this ….


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NOTICE OF POSSIBLE COPYRIGHT INFRINGEMENT

Ms. Foster,

As the owner of the copyrighted material of the official TICKED-OFF TRANNIES WITH KNIVES movie poster, we are placing you on notice that it is our understanding and belief that the derivative use of the poster image appearing on your blog risks copyright infringement as it was not authorized by us. It is in good faith that we are extending this notice to you and in turn requesting that you kindly remove the unauthorized material immediately.

Respectfully,
Toni Miller
La Luna Entertainment
_________________________________________________________


Imagine that! And from the same people who had no problem with unauthorized use of a couple of hate crime murder victims.

So, I guess they plan on suing me and taking me straight into bankruptcy. Huzzah. That will make an excellent image: the impoverished, infringed-upon filmmakers taking down the Goliath lone Trans activist. It will also do wonders for community relations — not that there’s any need for such great friends and allies as they’re obviously quite trans-positive per their own words! And who are we to disbelieve?

So if you were wondering if any of us “hot tranny messes” were going to be rewarded for bringing them all their “free publicity,” there’s your answer! Certainly! Legal threats!

GLAAD, take note!

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I’m taking note – and I am hereby publicizing the image. And this should not be interpreted as an endorsement of it – wink, wink – but, rather, merely as a public service from someone who believes that the cure for disgusting, gay transphobic speech is counter-speech.

After all, because of the threat by the Luna-Ticks, the very subject of what is contained in Vanessa’s derivative image is ripe for vigorous public debate.



Debate away, folks! And, while you’re debating…

Keep the following in mind:

§ 107. Limitations on exclusive rights: Fair use
Notwithstanding the provisions of sections 106 and 106A, the fair use of a copyrighted work, including such use by reproduction in copies or phonorecords or by any other means specified by that section, for purposes such as criticism, comment, news reporting, teaching (including multiple copies for classroom use), scholarship, or research, is not an infringement of copyright. In determining whether the use made of a work in any particular case is a fair use the factors to be considered shall include—

(1) the purpose and character of the use, including whether such use is of a commercial nature or is for nonprofit educational purposes;
(2) the nature of the copyrighted work;
(3) the amount and substantiality of the portion used in relation to the copyrighted work as a whole; and
(4) the effect of the use upon the potential market for or value of the copyrighted work.

The fact that a work is unpublished shall not itself bar a finding of fair use if such finding is made upon consideration of all the above factors.

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but if you happen to engage in a boycott of any particular gay-male-manufactured transphobic piece of garbage, I’m not exactly in a position to stop you, now am I?

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Ticked Off Transpeople With Signs Protest Movie

The controversial movie 'Ticked Off Trannies With Knives' was hit with a protest coordinated by MAGNET, Media Advocates Giving Equality to Trans People in New York last night.

Transpeople and allies gathered outside the theater to express their displeasure about the film and creator Israel Luna’s problematic use of the murder of Colorado trans teen Angie Zapata to promote it

The protest was coordinated by Ashley Love of MAGNET and included IFGE Executive Director Denise Leclair, Laverne Cox and Melissa Sklarz

“People are telling us to lighten up,” Love stated, “but I heard reports of two more trans women murdered this morning. It’s not a laughing matter. We’re not laughing at all.”

“We’re not calling for censorship — anyone can make whatever film they want,” said Denise Leclair. “We’re protesting Tribeca for putting this film in a competition for an award because that will make people look at this as an example.”

Coop Will Enter Basketball Hall Of Fame

My Comets may no longer be around (and I'm still pissed about how that transpired on the eve of tomorrow's WNBA Draft) but it was nice to hear during the Final Four that Cynthia Cooper is one of the peeps who will be part of the 2010 Naismith Hall of Fame Enshrinement Class.

The others joining Coop are LA Lakers owner Jerry Buss, Bob Hurley, Sr., Karl Malone and Scottie Pippen, along with the 1960 USA Men's Olympic team and the 1992 USA Basketball "Dream Team." Three players who are part of the 2010 Class are posthumously being inducted: Dennis Johnson, Gus Johnson and international star Maciel "Ubiratan" Pereira.

Interestingly enough, I discovered during my 2008 visit to the Hall of Fame that the Rockets and Comets have a joint exhibit in the Hall for the six combined NBA-WNBA titles won from 1994-2000.

She's now the coach of the Prairie View A&M Lady Panthers, but I had the pleasure of watching her work her magic during that Comets dynasty that dominated the initial years of the WNBA from 1997-2000.

Congrats Coop. Couldn't have happened to a more deserving player, and I'm looking forward to the day when Tina Thompson, Sheryl Swoopes, and Janeth Arcain join you there.

VA Governor Building A Bridge To The Confederacy

Bet you progressive voters in Virginia now wish y'all had gotten off your rotund behinds and voted last November.

Virginia Grand Dragon (oops Governor) Bob McDonnell (R) tried to quietly sign a proclamation at the behest of the Sons of Confederate Veterans designating April as Confederate History Month in the state for the first time since 2001.

The two previous Democratic governors declined to do so citing the divisive nature of this issue and the fact there is a sizable African-American population in the Cradle of the Confederacy.

The Virginia state capital of Richmond served as the capital of the Confederacy and numerous Civil War battles were fought in the state.

The proclamation states that “it is important for all Virginians to reflect upon our commonwealth’s shared history, to understand the sacrifices of the Confederate leaders, soldiers and citizens during the period of the Civil War, and to recognize how our history has led to our present.“

Reflect on this, Bob.

'Our new government is founded upon exactly the opposite idea; its foundations are laid, its corner- stone rests upon the great truth, that the negro is not equal to the white man; that slavery -- subordination to the superior race -- is his natural and normal condition. [Applause.] This, our new government, is the first, in the history of the world based upon this great physical, philosophical, and moral truth.'

Confederate VP Alexander Stephens March 21, 1861 'Cornerstone Speech' Savannah, GA


But it's interesting to note McDonnell's proclamation didn't mention the S-word that was the primary reason why the Civil War jumped off in the first place.

Slavery.

McDonnell said that he was not 'focused' on that part of the state's past. He said people can learn more about Civil War history in Virginia and pointed to next year's sesquicentennial of the beginning of the Civil War."

But I and other African-Americans who do and don't reside in your state are.

As someone who has a maternal ancestor who arrived in New Orleans in chains in 1810, obviously I have no love for the Confederacy and I'm glad they were defeated.

But I'm beyond sick and tired as a child and godchild of historians of seeing Confederate apologists try to obfuscate and spin their way out of the fact that their Confederate ancestors were traitors who started an armed insurrection against the US Government.

In addition, their ancestors fought and died in a bloody war to continue an economic system that not only enslaved my ancestors, but was keeping them poor.

Keep building that bridge to the Confederacy, Bob. With your efforts to end civil rights coverage for GLBT people in Virginia and now this boneheaded move, you'll make it much easier for neighboring states in the area to snatch away jobs and tourists from you.

But it seems like the only people you want in the state are rebel flag waving apologists for the War to Perpetuate Slavery.

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

UConn Perfect Perfect

The University of Connecticut Huskies overcame an abysmal first half in which they scored 12 total points and went 10 minutes without scoring to beat the Stanford Cardinal 53-47 at the Alamodome.

It was UConn's 78th consecutive win, and they became the first NCAA women's basketball team to win consecutive national championships with an unbeaten record. Interestingly enough, UConn won the 2002 national title game against Oklahoma in San Antonio with a perfect record as well.

The Huskies get to savor this history and their seventh national championship for a few months before they resume chasing the legendary John Wooden coached UCLA Bruins.

The Bruins won 88 straight games in the 70's before Notre Dame knocked them off . They are only 11 wins shy of passing that mark, and it'll be interesting to see if they can do it.

Funny...I Don't Feel Like An Icon

Monday afternoon I was on a Facebook chat with Christa Hilfers. During that chat she mentioned that she was inspired to get involved in fighting for GLBT civil rights when she saw and heard me speaking at the inaugural 2008 Trans Pride March and Rally.

I've heard similar positive comments from other activists and even international trans activists I admire.

Used to be once upon a time I was the person who was in awe of meeting the people I'd heard and read about doing the in the trenches work of battling for trans people's civil rights.

Now I'm the person who has people telling me they're in awe of and sometimes afraid to approach and say hello when they see me out and about in the world.

Folks, I'm only human and I'll gladly take a few moments out of my day to say hello to you. Remember that the next time you see me at some event I'm attending or taking part in.

But being real for a moment, I don't feel like an icon.

When I think about icons I'm visualizing Rep. John Lewis (D-GA), Dr. Angela Davis, Julian Bond, the late Rep. Barbara Jordan, the late Sylvia Rivera, Sarah DePalma, Miss Major, the late Alexander John Goodrum, the Rev Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

When did lil' old me cross over into that territory?

Well, at least I'm hearing it while I'm six feet above ground.

Sure, I have an IFGE Trinity Award on the mantel. I'm blessed with a widely read blog that 2000 people a day visit. I do guest posts on other blogs and I post at the Bilerico Project because people who read my commentary there and on TransGriot believe what I have to say on various issues is important.

I'm flattered that I even get quoted from time to time by other bloggers. People are even starting to borrow my words and quotes like Georgia state Rep. Karla Drennan did when she used my 'the GLBT community is a microcosm of society at large' saying during an interview. I see 'transpeeps' and 'conservafool' being increasingly used across the Net. I'm getting attention for being a speaker and lecturer.

But all I'm trying to do is make the world a better place than the way I found it, stamp out injustice when I come across it, educate people about trans issues while motivating trans people to be the agents for their own liberation.

And I'm doing all this while continuing to evolve into becoming the best person I can be.

I have my days where I believe I did a better job achieving that mission than others. I have my doubts sometimes about whether I've positively affected people, done the education well enough or left a positive individual impression as a chocolate flavored trans woman that will positively impact transpeople of all ethnicities.

Sometimes I ponder the question if I'm doing enough to step into the pumps of the positive Black women cis and trans, who preceded me on this feminine journey that I've been embarking on.

But I really don't feel like an icon.

NY Protest Of 'Ticked Off Trannies With Knives' Tonight

Protest/rally Against Tribeca's Decision to Premiere Transphobic Film "Ticked Off Trannies With Knives"

What: A protest/rally demanding that Tribeca Film Festival remove the transphobic film "Ticked Off Trannies With Knives (TOTWK)". Melissa Sklarz (Director of New York Trans Rights Organization) , Ashley Love (Media Advocates Giving National Equality to Trans People), Denise Le Claire (Exec. Director of International Foundation of Gender Education), celebrities, & LGBT activists will be speaking. A candle light vigil for trans victims of hate crimes will also be held.

When/Where: Tuesday, April 6th, 2010 6:30-8:00pm @ Tribeca Cinemas @ 54 Varick Street, NYC

Why: The movie makes light of violence and rape against trans women, exploits the high-profile murder of teenager Angie Zapata, includes the pejorative term "trannies" in its title, inaccurately depicts trans women's identities as drag queen "performers" and "caricatures" and misrepresents the lives of an extremely disenfranchised group who suffer violence at alarming rates.


TransGriot Note: Here's a ciip of the movie and Alexandra Billings' take on TOTWK from her blog



Kim Pearson, Executive Director of Trans Youth Family Allies, says "Negative and stereotyped media portrayals of transgender people hurt the community because Americans still need more education on transgender issues. The images in this film (TOTWK) make a mockery of their lives. I want more for my child and all transgender people."

"The transsexual and transgender communities are all too often the victims of violence, marginalization and discrimination as a result of inaccurate media depictions like this film, which is offensive, dehumanizing and misogynistic and causes further misunderstanding and harm to an already dangerously oppressed minority group", states Ashley Love, Organizer of Media Advocates Giving National Equality to Trans People (MAGNET).

MAGNET had a meeting with staff at Tribeca Center on Friday, March 26, educating them about why this film is extremely problematic and dehumanizing. They refused to remove the film or make a statement that they don't endorse the oppression of transsexual and transgender women, so MAGNET is now organizing a protest/rally, in association with Families United Against Hate, International Foundation For Gender Education, New York Trans Rights Organization, and Remembering Our Dead, to demand that they remove the film, and to draw attention to injustices trans people face in everyday life and in the media. Many trans advocates, trans organizations, women's groups and allies voiced their concerns to GLAAD, expressing they needed aggressive action. GLAAD issued an uncompromising and strong petition & call to action demanding that Tribeca remove the film: http://www.glaad. org/calltoaction /032510

To support or endorse protest on Tuesday, receive information about issues raised or press questions, or become involved in anti-defamation/ media work for the transsexual and transgender communities:

CONTACT: Organizer of MAGNET: Ashley Love- Email: magnet_right_ now@yahoo. com

Join the "Boycott TOTWK" Facebook page & find more info/articles on the story: http://www.facebook .com/group. php?gid=10350023 9687288&ref= mf#!/group.php? gid=106926329329 724

For info/articles on issues raised: Ashley Love's blog: www.transformingmedia.blogspot.com

Media Advocates Giving National Equality to Trans People (MAGNET)is an anti-defamation organization dedicated to educating the media about transsexual and transgender issues, as well as pushing for more authentic and positive portrayals of trans people in the media.

Trans Leaders Don't Just Live On I-5, I-95 or I-495

Interstates 5 and 95 respectively run north-south down the west and east coasts of the United States. They pass through four of the Top Ten US cities in population such as New York, Philadelphia, Los Angeles and San Diego and other trans meccas such as Seattle, Portland, Boston, Baltimore, Miami, near the San Francisco-Oakland Bay Area and through our nation's capital of Washington DC.

But for far too long, trans movement policy has been controlled by top down organizations based inside I-495, the Capital Beltway with attitudes bordering on arrogance that they're the smartest people in the room.

Judging by your results over the last two decades, no you aren't.

One of the things that has long pissed off many of us who live on or near interstates not numbered I-5 or I-95 is the attitude that infects activist from the 'blue' coastal cities that the rest of us in 'flyover country' not only don't matter, we are incapable of producing leaders who can get us to the promised land of equality and fairness.

Those leaders exist and live in Colorado, Texas, Georgia, Kentucky, Illinois, Michigan, Arizona, Iowa, Tennessee, Hawaii and Oklahoma just to name a few of those states.

They are producing or have produced trans leaders who are coming up with fresh tactics, innovative strategies, and making historically bold moves to go where no transperson has gone before in terms of running for state elective office.

In flyover country we have had to battle the same organized fundamentalist resistance that plagued the 60's civil rights movement. By having to work in these conservative 'Red State' environments, we long ago learned the lesson that we have to work intersectionally, intelligently and be creative to get whatever GLBT laws we needed passed. We have also learned things that help us frame the policy arguments we need to make and the messaging strategies we need to follow to ensure that happen.

We are also aware that even if we do pass those GLBT friendly laws, we have to be prepared to fight tooth and nail to defend them.

The point is that talented and intelligent trans people who are capable of leading our community aren't just concentrated on the coasts, we're everywhere.

It's past time that the trans leadership ranks reflected not only our ethnic diversity, but our geographic diversity as well.

Monday, April 05, 2010

One Giant Leap For Women Astronauts

I've been a big fan of space missions and space exploration ever since I watched the 1968 Apollo 8 mission and the Apollo 11 moon landing. I followed the drama of Apollo 13, the last Apollo mission, the three Skylab missions and the beginning of the Space Shuttle program.

No matter what country launches it, whether it's mine, Russia or now China, I've always been one of these people that feels that humankind needs to begin exploring space ASAP in order for humankind to survive and continue evolving.

Unfortunately I missed this morning's 6:21 AM EDT launch of Discovery and its seven person crew. Madame Space Junkie needs to be paying closer attention to the remaining launch schedule since there are only four more shuttle launches that will happen before the fleet is retired in September.



But back to STS-131 news. This is a 14 day resupply mission to the International Space Station that will have three planned spacewalks.

This mission is also notable for the women's history it is making. This is the third time NASA has launched a shuttle with three women in the crew and the women taking part in STS-131 are Japan's Naoko Yamazaki, Dorothy Metcalf-Lindenburger, and Stephanie Wilson.

Mission Specialist Stephanie Wilson has already etched her name in the history books as the second African-American woman to be launched into space. She achieved that feat during the 2006 STS-121 mission. This is her third shuttle flight, having also flown on STS-120 in 2007.

Dr. Mae Jemison was the first, Dr. Joan Higginbotham was the third. US Air Force Colonel Dr. Yvonne Cagle is part of the astronaut corps as well but has yet to be assigned to a shuttle flight crew.

There is a fourth woman currently in space on the ISS, Astronaut Tracy Caldwell Dyson. When she and the other three women on board Discovery meet up after the shuttle docks on Wednesday, it will result in the largest gathering of women in space in history.

In all there have been 54 women out of the 517 people that have reached space, with hopefully more to come.

Will definitely be keeping with what's happening with STS-131 until the mission is completed.

How Many Black Callers Is 'Too Many'?

One of the things some vanilla flavored people forget far too often is that African-Americans make up 13% of the United States population. That figure may increase pending the results of the 2010 Census now being conducted.

Rolled my eyes after hearing this call from a person complaining that C-SPAN was letting on too many Black callers.



First off, we're American citizens who have opinions about the pressing issues of the day as well and not all African Americans are liberal Democrats. There are African-Americans who identify as independents and Republicans.

Our chocolate flavored voices about the diverse issues of the day are just as valid and important to hear as your vanilla flavored one.

Just because what we have to say does not always neatly line up with your Fox News flavored worldview doesn't make our comments and opinions any less valid to hear.

So I want to know North Carolina conservafool? How many African-American C-SPAN callers is too many?

Ten? Five? Two? One?

I guess the 'C' in C-SPAN in the complaining caller's case is supposed to stand for Caucasian Conservative.

FYI to this prejudiced and informationally challenged consevafool. The money Black folks pay for their cable bills helps support C-SPAN just like yours does, so we have every right to call in and express ourselves.

Lord knows I have to endure vanilla flavored conservaignorance on the regular from y'all whenever I tune into C-SPAN. Every now and then you'll have to endure hearing my point of view as well.

As a matter of fact Black people, let's piss off him and other conservatives by making it a point to call in more often to C-SPAN and express ourselves.


H/T New Black Woman

Why Y'all Tripping About The Prez Only Checking 'African-American' On His Census Form?

I'm chuckling to myself about some peeps getting perturbed over the fact that President Obama only checked 'African-American' in the race description section of his 2010 Census form.

After all the negativity, hatred and racist vitriol the birthers, deathers, GOP and other assorted predominately white peeps have hurled his way over the last year, if it had been me I would only be checking one box, too.

The 'one-drop rule' lives.

Many white peeps made it quite clear since January 20, 2009 you didn't care President Obama's late mother shared your ethnic background by your nekulturny behavior and racist misspelled signs you carried during the teabagger hatefests.

The interesting dynamic I've noticed when it comes to biracial folks is that whiteness is quick to claim them if they're doing something positive. But let them think, act or speak their minds in ways counter to white groupthink or get into legal trouble and all of a sudden they're back to being 'Black' again.

The dust up over Professor Gates and the predominately white backlash over President's initial comments criticizing the police officer made that quite clear.

So I'm not surprised when push came to shove, he only checked "African-American' on his census form. Y'all have done everything possible before and since Inauguration Day to send the message that Obama isn't one of you and y'all don't consider him 'white'.

Teabag Lady

TransGriot Note: Been a while since I treated y'all to one of my song rewrites. This one is dedicated to all those tragically misinformed women in the teabagger movement,

Teabag Lady
Sung to the tune of 'Bag Lady' by Erykah Badu



Teabag lady hates Obama cause he's Black
Why y'all prejudiced like that
I guess Fox News never told you
He's your president too
Yes boo, yes boo, yes boo

He just wants what's best for the USA
He just wants what's best for the USA
He just wants what's best for the USA
I said he just wants what's best for the USA
He just wants what's best for the USA

And he's bright
He's bright
He's bright
Ooh ooh

Teabag lady what is all the fuss
You need to shut up
Talkin' that birther stuff
When people see you comin'
People take off runnin'
From you it's true oh yes we do

One day we gone say you get out my face
One day we gone say you get out my face
I said one day we gone say you get out my face
One day we gone say you get out my face

And he's bright
He's bright
He's bright
Ooh ooh

Girl I know sometimes it's hard
And you won't let go
Obama won in a electoral landslide
You can't deny it he's American stop crying
So oh, oh, oh
If you start reading
Then you can believe it
You'll feel so much better
(So much better baby)

Teabag lady
Let Beck go, let Beck go, let Beck go, let Beck go
Ooh, ooh
Girl Fox you don't need it
I betcha info makes it better
Betcha info makes it better
Betcha info makes it better
(Need someone to teach you right)
Betcha info makes it better
(I betcha info, betcha info)
Betcha info makes it better
Betcha info makes it better
Betcha info makes it better
Betcha info makes it better
(I betcha info, betcha info)
Betcha info makes it better
(I betcha info, I betcha info, oh)
Betcha info makes it better
Betcha info makes it better
(Oh...)
Betcha info make it better...

Teabag lady, hmm
Let Beck go, let Beck go, let Beck go, let Beck go
Girl you don't need Fox, hmm

Sunday, April 04, 2010

What Happened In Surabaya Should Never Stay In Surabaya

TransGriot Note: You think we have drama here in the States fighting some of our right wing opponents and our recalcitrant gay and lesbian frenemies for our rights, try being a GLBT activist in other parts of the world.

Fighting for your rights there can put you at risk for physical violence and possible death in addition to fighting faith based intolerance.

Here is Sass Rogando Sasot's account originally posted on her Facebook page about the recent ILGA Asia conference in Surabaya, Indonesia. It was interfered with and forced to cancel by the oppressive tag team of Islamic fundamentalists and Indonesian government officials.

Photos of Surabaya drama by Sylvia Tan


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Thursday, 25 March

Singapore to Surabaya

Together with JJ, my fellow communication officer in Asia of the International Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Trans & Intersex Association (ILGA), I was in a hotel in Singapore when I read the news that the Indonesian Police in Surabaya ordered the cancellation of the 4th ILGA Asia Regional Conference. JJ then asked me to check my ILGA mail for any advisory. There was none. So we then proceeded to go to the airport.

While waiting for our flight to Surabaya, I took advantage of the free internet of the Changi Airport to check for updates about the conference. Aernout, my boyfriend, was online at that time. He expressed his concern and asked me whether I would still go to Surabaya. I told him, yes as we didn’t receive any advisory from ILGA not to go.

Aernout is very supportive of what I do, so even though he would rather asked me not to go he just said: “I know this is part of your calling…just be careful and text me as soon as you landed in Surabaya.” He also advised me to get a local sim card so he could easily contact me.

At the internet kiosk, JJ and I met another participant, a guy from India; and while waiting for our boarding call, I saw Agniva, a trans activist, also from India. We asked them whether they heard of the news. They said yes and “it was all over the news.”

When we were already on the plane and were given the arrival/departure card by the flight attendants, I asked JJ what we should say our purpose of going to Indonesia was. JJ told me to just say “convention” – human rights convention if specifically asked what kind – and “leisure”. And that was what we did.

Surabaya

There were people waiting for us at the airport. It wasn’t difficult to spot them as they were holding rainbow flags. They informed us that the conference was not cancelled and we were moving it from the Mercure to the Oval Hotel, although the conference will be held “underground”.

Upon arrival at the Oval Hotel, I saw familiar faces and gave them hugs. After all the exchange of sweetness, I immediately checked in, went to my room, and unpacked. Then I went to register for the conference. The registration area was somewhere in the basement of the hotel. The atmosphere was jovial. There were even girls at the registration area who were flirting with me as I pick up my conference kit and shirt. Then came my first ordeal of the day: Activating an Indonesian sim card.

The receptionist told me where to buy the sim card; she was even helpful enough to write on a piece of paper Bahasa phrases that I could show to the store so they would understand what I was looking for. The store was just at the back of the hotel. I got myself a Simpati sim card and two top-up vouchers. I inserted the sim into my phone and started using it. But Indonesian sim cards weren’t like those “plug-and-play” sim cards I was used to. Indonesian sim cards needed to be registered before you can use them. And I didn’t know this. I asked one of the local participants to help me sort it out. She was very helpful: She registered the sim card and made sure that I could already call, receive calls, and send and receive text. I immediately called my boyfriend to inform him that I was safe and there was no sign of danger anywhere.

I then browsed the contents of my conference kit, most specially the conference brochure. I checked the schedule of my presentation. I was one of the five speakers for the fourth plenary session: Transgender Rights in Asia, which was supposed to be on Sunday, the 28th of March. This ILGA Asia Regional Conference was such a significant one because this was the first time that transgender issues were discussed in a plenary. Asian transgender activists were so excited about this as our issues were being given this importance and attention. My supposed presentation was entitled “From Priestesses to Politicians: The Rise of the Transpinay”.

The brochure also has a section on how to get around Surabaya, which included LGBT-specific information. I smiled when I saw several transwomen-specific cruising spots under the “Meeting Place LGBT at Surabaya”. I feel happy to the single transwomen participants who fancy men – at least if they feel lonely and horny there are places to find an erotic/romantic companionship.

This was one of those rare moments that I’d seen information like this. Let’s be honest, conferences aren’t just all about discussing serious stuff, they are also events where you can meet people. There have been a lot of relationships – erotic, romantic, or both – that bloomed in conferences. It’s very easy for lesbians (whether they are transwomen or not) or gay men to, you know, have a little something-something during these conferences. Moreover, cruising spots guides usually feature those relevant to mostly gay men. For transwomen who fancy men, there would usually be no information on where to find men who fancy them. Perhaps people just assume that these men can be found in “gay” bars. Of course, transwomen of any culture know that this is very rarely the case. (Well, of course, I also hope to find transmen-specific cruising spots in the future.)

The brochure, and the fact that warias (a close equivalent of the term transwomen) in Indonesia can live openly, almost just like in the Philippines, gave me an impression that Surabaya and Indonesia in general is a relatively safe place. And I thought that the protests against the conference were just a minor hiccup and that the news about the threats might just be a media exaggeration. Hence, I felt safe and even went by myself to one of the famous malls in Surabaya. Nonetheless, I remained vigilant.

When I returned to the hotel, I borrowed someone’s laptop to check my mail and update my Facebook status. I read an email sent by Hender, a friend of mine from the Society of Transsexual Women of the Philippines (STRAP); she’s also the President of UP Babaylan, the first university-based LGBT organization. She is also one of the participants and a speaker in the youth panel. This youth plenary panel is another first in the ILGA Asia Regional Conference. Hender informed me that she was already at a train station in Jakarta, waiting for her train to Surabaya.

We, the communications team in Asia of ILGA, sans Douglas Sanders who hadn’t yet arrived, then had a meeting about how we were going to go about our presentation the following day, the “Enhancing Communication: The ILGA Communication Project in Asia”. I volunteered to do the powerpoint slides that would accompany our presentation. Since my laptop was still useless, I borrowed Agniva’s. But before making the powerpoint slides, I decided to take a nap as I was so tired. While in my deep sleep, the phone in my room rang. It was JJ, informing me to go to the registration area for the “security meeting” of the conference. I immediately went down.

The registration room was already almost full when I arrived. The atmosphere was still relaxed and full of smile. I saw more familiar faces and four more Filipino LGBT activists. The conference organizers led the security briefing. They told us that 1) the protestors already knew where we are; 2) that we have already received threats from several radical groups in Indonesia; 3) that there was a mass demonstration that happened that day in front of the Mercure Hotel, the original venue of the conference; 4) that we were no longer following the original programme, that they would just inform us of the programme and of the rooms where the sessions would be held as we would no longer hold the sessions in the function rooms; 5) we shouldn’t carry around us any paraphernalia related to the conference, they also advised us not to expose them even in our hotel rooms; and 6) the security strategy that was in place: intelligence, communication system, and evacuation plans.

While the briefing was going on, I surveyed the room and looked for Hender – she wasn’t there. It made me so worried. I immediately asked one of the supposed co-panelists of Hender in the youth plenary. No, she hadn’t heard from Hender also. I then expressed my worry to other Filipinos in the room. After the security briefing, I told Agniva, the trans activist from India, about my concern. She then asked me what time did Hender email me from Jakarta. I said sometime in the morning. “Well, the train ride takes ten hours Sass,” said Agniva. That gave me a sigh of relief. But still I was nervous. I didn’t feel that safe, especially that during the open forum of the security briefing a seasoned Indonesian activist told us that there had been an incident of violence during the candle-lighting event in Yogyakarta in 2000, which also happened inside a hotel.

When I went back to my room, I immediately hid all things related to the conference – T-shirts, IDs, brochure, readings. Then I called Aernout to inform him of our security briefing and that we were still going to continue the conference. “Okay, be safe baby. I love you,” he said, ending my first night in Surabaya.

Friday, 26 March

A text message coming from Aernout woke me up that day. I went on with my usual morning ritual. Feeling confident that day, I donned a suit over a dress and wore my almost 7-inch peep toe pumps.

I went down for breakfast. But before munching on croissants, I looked around the restaurant to see any sign of Hender. She wasn’t there yet. I shared the table with Justus Eisfeld, co-director of Global Action for Transgender Equality, and Gloria Careaga, one of the secretary generals of ILGA. I told them that I was really impressed about how this conference dedicated an entire plenary session and several workshops for transgender issues. We talked about the need of pushing transgender issues more. In the middle of our discussion, I saw Hender. I was relieved.

After breakfast, we then proceeded to the fourth floor for the opening of the conference. After the speeches from the organizers, we went to the hotel rooms of the workshop of our choice. There were three simultaneous workshops that morning: Strategizing for Regional LGBT Advocacy; Homophobia, Transphobia, and Domestic Violence; and Fridae Forum on Reaching Out to Queer Asia. Hender and I attended the second one.

The workshop had two presentations and was moderated by Anna Kirey (Kyrgyzstan). First one was about domestic violence among LGBT relationships in Indonesia, presented by Desya Pusponegoro (Indonesia). It was followed by the presentation of Ging Cristobal (Philippines), LBT Violence across Asia: Scenarios, Challenges, and the Future.

After the workshop, we were told that there wouldn’t be any more workshops for that day and that we could just use the day for sightseeing. We then went down to have snacks. Hender and I shared a table with two Indonesian participants who also attended the same workshop we were at. We talked about my boyfriend, what it was like to live in Surabaya, and what was there to see in Surabaya. Since Hender was into and had a knack in learning foreign languages, she asked harmless to naughty Bahasa phrases from them. Before our snack finished, Hender already knew the useful phrases she needed to know in order to ensnare an Indonesian guy – she was even christened an Indonesian name, “Ayu”, which they say is the Bahasa for “sweet”. They told me that I didn’t need one as my name “Sass” sounds like an Indonesian name; and I was told that I had the same aura of Dian Sastrowardoyo, an Indonesian actress.

After our snacks, Hender and I separated ways. She went to the room of our Indonesian friends. And together with JJ and Douglas Sanders, my fellow Communication Officers in Asia of ILGA and Stephen Barris, I had a meeting with the two secretary generals of ILGA, Gloria Carreaga and Renato Sabbadini. It was already lunchtime when we finished our meeting.

While we were in the middle of our lunch, one of the local organizers announced, “Please go now to your rooms, you can bring your food there. They are already here.” We then rushed to our hotel rooms with our lunch. While we were waiting for the elevator, we saw some of the protestors entering the hotel.

After finishing my lunch in my room, I went to Hender’s room. We then decided to go down to the first floor of the hotel where we could see what was happening in the lobby. There were also a few participants on the first floor, which included Ging Cristobal who is also from the Philippines. I tried to look down and see what was going on in the lobby. One of the protestors outside the hotel saw me. He gestured that he would beat me up by raising his clenched fist towards me. I immediately retreated.

I read it somewhere that we Filipinos are so good in using humor to cope with any stressful and traumatic situation. I couldn’t agree more. While we were on the first floor, Hender and I were joking about going down and introducing ourselves to the protestors ala “Miss Gay” beauty pageant contestants: “Standing in front of you is a 19-year old stunner that goes by the name of Claudine Barrrreeeeettto!”. Then we sarcastically said that perhaps these people needed only to see something beautiful in their lives. To us Filipinos, this was a way of lightening up an otherwise tense situation. To others, this might be seen as an act of foolishness and lack of appreciation of the seriousness of the situation. Another participant who just didn’t get it approached Hender and told her in an ominous tone: “You don’t really want to further agitate them.”

Then we heard angry screams at the lobby. That made us rush back to our rooms. Hender and I went to my room. Hender was simply the epitome of cool. While we were at my room, Hender asked me to iron her hair; she wanted to have fabulous straight hair, if ever the fundamentalists attacked us. But what made me laugh more was her next statement. She opened the curtains of the windows and said: “This is so boring. I want to go out. We shouldn’t waste the beautiful Surabaya weather by staying in this hotel room.”

I was so eager to know what was the situation outside the hotel. I then asked Hender whether she knew any room that faced the front of the hotel as my room faced the back of the hotel. She suggested a room that was on the sixth floor. We went up and rang the bell. It was the room of some of the Chinese participants. They were videotaping what was happening outside: more police cars were arriving. The Chinese participants asked us what we thought of the situation. Hender and I expressed our fear about our safety that was being aggravated by the fact that we didn’t know what was really happening.

Then someone knocked on the door. One of the Mongolian participants entered and told us to pack our things for we would prepare for our evacuation. First, we doubted it for the last instruction that was given to us was just to stay inside our rooms. The room’s phone rang and it was confirmed: We had to pack.

Hender and I went down to our floors to start packing. After I packed everything, I went to Hender’s room and asked her to go down with me to the first floor, just to know what was really happening at the lobby. There were Indonesian participants on the first floor. They told us to just go back to our rooms. While on our way up, we saw several suspicious looking Indonesian men climbing up the stairs. Hender whispered to me “Scary!”. With a come-hither look in their faces, the men said “Hi” to us. I didn’t mind them and hurriedly run up the stairs. Then I noticed that Hender was no longer behind me. I heard Hender talking to the guys: “Hello! Sorry we’re lost…”

I shouted, “Hender!” When Hender was already with me, she told me that the guys said “It’s okay” and one of them caressed her hair.

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Hender and I went to the hotel room of Ging Cristobal. Agniva was also there. We told them what happened with us on the stairs. We were all lamenting that we didn’t really know what was really happening. Then Aernout called.

I told him what was going on. He was so worried about me. I told him to monitor any news updates about this conference as we didn’t know what was happening as we didn’t have internet connection in our hotel rooms. I told him to post my Indonesian phone number on my facebook wall so that my friends could contact me.

Because he was on the train, Aernout texted my friend Nadine, who lives in London, to ask her to post my Indonesian number on my facebook wall. Nadine then called me and asked whether we were safe. I then gave my phone to Hender and uttered one of her funniest punchlines in Surabaya: “Hi Nadine! The only thing that’s safe here is the sex!”

After some time, Aernout called me again, updating me of the news he read about our ordeal, which included the news about students protests against the conference and the threat from the fundamentalists to raid every hotel in the Surabaya to make sure we wouldn’t be able to hold our conference. He then offered to call the Philippine consulate in Surabaya to inform them that we were in the hotel. I told him to just give me the number. He then said that he wished that he were in Surabaya to take care of me. He told me that if possible, next time he’d like to accompany me. He then asked how was Hender. I then gave the phone to Hender. Then Hender joked to Aernout that we would just go down to the lobby wearing swimsuits and high heels because that might be able to calm the protestors.

I then called the Philippine consulate in Surabaya. Mr. Sagrado, the honorary consul in Surabaya, talked to me. I informed him of the situation and that there were several Filipinos in the hotel. I then asked his contact numbers just in case we need help from them.

Aiyah, a friend of mine who lives in Boracay, also called me. She made sure that we were okay. She advised us to just stay in our room and to be very careful about dealing with the fundamentalists. She also told me that Aernout was keeping her informed about our situation and STRAP, the organization I belong to in the Philippines, was already alerted of what was happening in Surabaya.

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I felt that we needed international press to be in Surabaya, just in case something happened to us. After all, all the news about this was just coming from the Indonesian press. I asked Ging whether it would be a good idea to inform international media such as CNN or BBC about what was happening. I told her that I could ask Aernout to find a way to be able to inform them. Ging then called the room of Grace Poore of IGLHRC. Ging asked Grace whether it was okay to inform international media. Grace said that we shouldn’t as there were no instructions from the local organizers to do that.

Then JJ called, asking me to proceed to Room 309.

Room 309

I immediately went to Room 309, our planning room. The local organizers were there, as well as the board members of ILGA Asia, the secretary generals of ILGA, and us, the communication officers. Tesa de Vela, representative of Isis International who is also from the Philippines, was facilitating our meeting.

The atmosphere during this time was still light, tension was still contained. Tesa was still calm during this time, telling us to just consider the situation as a hands-on training on the dangers of being an activist. She then told us that the conference was already cancelled. She then went on discussing two options: 1) We can stay in the hotel until the 30th; and 2) Those who would like to leave early can do so, their security as they go to the airport will be guaranteed by the police, but those participants should shoulder the expenses of rebooking their flights.

We then planned our communication strategy on how we would disseminate this information to the participants. We also formed two committees. One committee was in-charge of going from room to room to inform the participants of the situation and the options. Another committee, the committee I belong to, was composed of the communication officers in Asia plus one of the local organizers. We were in-charge of drafting the chronology of events, which would serve as our communique.

The floor was then opened for questions and clarifications. I was one of those who asked a question. I told them that it wasn’t enough to tell the participants about the options. I told them that the participants deserved to know what was really happening, as they didn’t have any clue about the entire situation. I also told them that we should also clarify to the participants our exact relationship with the police for according to the news the police couldn’t guarantee our safety.

In between our discussions, members of Indonesian police kept entering our room to talk with the local organizers. Honestly, I didn’t feel at ease with them entering the room. At one instance, two police officers entered the room – one of them had three stars embellishing his shoulders. All talks with the police were in Bahasa, keeping a lot of us in the dark.

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Then there was this piece of paper, being signed by one of the local organizers. It was a signed agreement between us and the fundamentalists, an agreement that included that we shouldn’t issue any media statement.

Tesa asked the lawyers in the group whether that was legally binding. Douglas Sanders said no and iterated that the cancellation of the conference was illegal under Indonesian law.

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We then went on doing the tasks assigned to us. Our committee went to the room of JJ to draft “the chronology of events”. Douglas Sanders drafted it. Douglas joked to me that this ordeal just added more color to my story as a transgender activist. To which I replied, “I can already imagine how I will start the sentence in this chapter of my life: While I was walking in my almost 7-inch heels, the fundamentalists arrived.” This made us both laugh. Renato Sabbadini, one of the secretary generals of ILGA, then arrived to assist in drafting the communiqué.

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It was already dinner, and we were already hungry. We asked Renato whether it was safe for us to go down and have dinner at the restaurant. Renato said he would check and call us if it was okay to go down.

In a few minutes, he called us and informed us that it was okay to go down; we just had to avoid passing through the lobby by using the stairs going to the restaurant. So we did.

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While we were at the restaurant, members of Indonesian media entered the hotel and were trying to take video footage. The hotel management asked them to get out. The presence of the media inside the hotel agitated the protestors; some of them went inside the hotel and started shouting. The hotel just told us that dinner would just be served in our hotel rooms.

I immediately left the restaurant and went to Room 309 again.

When I went back to Room 309 the atmosphere was now more tense. There were now more people in the room. They also called all the participants to gather there.

There were new developments. Tesa said that they had gathered reports that in the next day more protestors would gather in the hotel and they might be armed. The original plan was scratched. We had to evacuate the hotel. They told us their strategy on how we were going to do this: They had already identified several safe houses and small hotels in Surabaya to which we would be housed until the time of our flights out of Surabaya; and we have to go out in small numbers.

People got confused. Several concerns were raised. “What about our security?!!” Room 309 was a nerve waiting to explode.

I was on the verge of crying. When Ging saw that, she said, “Just cry later.” I held back my tears. We both know that if anyone had started to cry in that room an avalanche of emotional breakdown would had been triggered.

The committee assigned to convey the new information to all the participants went on doing their task.

Participants also started to evacuate by themselves. Several funding agencies were also being called to fund the return tickets of the participants.

I told Hender that we better go back to our rooms, get our bags, and just meet again in Room 309.

When I entered my room, it was the time I palpably felt my fear. I left the door open as I tried to reach my bag. I was so afraid that when I went inside, someone would just be there and try to hurt me.

Upon getting my bag, I called Aernout and told him about the situation. It was the time that I started breaking down. I told him about the threats of the fundamentalists. I told him I felt so defeated, that we didn’t even give up a fight. And the hate of the fundamentalists were just too much: before I only encountered these kind of people in the news but having experienced them in real life was another level of a disheartening experience. I also told him that everything was becoming more and more confusing as information changed almost every 30 minutes. Aernout kept me calm and assured me that I would be safe. He urged me to just find a way to get out of Surabaya immediately and to not fully trust the police.

During my conversation with Aernout, I saw one of the participants getting out of her room. Her eyes were still red and swelling. We gave each other a hug.

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Packed dinners were brought to Room 309.

Everyone was keeping their calm all throughout the ordeal. But the fear of the participants was so palpable. The corridors felt longer. Lights felt dimmer. And the air felt heavier.

Then it was announced that the fundamentalists were already going from floor to floor, making sure that we’re no longer holding any conference or that we are already leaving the hotel. It was clear. They want us out. Several times we had to keep quiet inside the room so that the fundamentalists who were walking around our floor wouldn’t hear us.

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Eva Lee (China) had just come back from her duty of going from room to room to inform the participants of the latest developments. I saw her trying to contain her tears. I asked her to sit beside me. I gave her a comforting hug.

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Ging entered Room 309 and announced that the Philippine consulate would fetch all the Filipino participants and house them to safety. It felt like I was lifted out of a well I had accidentally fallen into. But I felt sad about the people we were going to leave at the hotel. And I couldn’t help but feel guilty about just leaving them there. And what about those participants who came from a country that aren’t sympathetic at all of LGBT people? Would their consulates take care of them?

Ging then told Hender and I to proceed to her room. Hender and I said our goodbyes to the people in the room. Then I informed Aernout that the Philippine consulate was already going to fetch us.

Ging’s Room

Several police officers just left the room of Ging when Hender and I arrived. Ging, JJ, Agniva, and an Indonesian activist were in the room. The Indonesian activist told us that we would be safe soon. She also told us that she would be staying at the hotel until all the participants were gone. She also apologized for what was happening and told us that if ever we needed anything she would just be in her room. When she left, the Philippine consul called Ging. He told Ging that the head of the police assigned in securing the Oval Hotel told him that we were safe in the hotel: meaning, there was no need for the consulate to fetch us.

We all objected to the assessment of the police. It was clear to us. We were not safe, we didn’t feel safe, and we didn’t know whether we could ever trust the police. We just want to get out of the hotel as soon as possible. Ging also told the consul that the fundamentalists were already going from floor to floor. We didn’t feel secure at all. However, the consul seemed keener to believe the police than us.

We thought of another plan. Luckily, JJ knew someone from the Philippine Department of Foreign Affairs (DFA). JJ told her contact of what was happening. To cut things short, the DFA called the consul and ordered him to fetch us by himself.

While JJ and Ging were busy arranging our exit from the hotel, I was busy arranging our return flights to Manila. Aernout was on the phone helping me. He checked the soonest available flights from Surabaya to Manila.

Ging was also arranging to get support from an international funding agency to pay for our flights. But it took a while for them to confirm. As a safety net, I asked Aernout to just pay and book for our flights; we would just pay him as soon as we got the fund. Aernout agreed. He then asked me to text him our passport details.

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The consul arrived in our hotel room. At last, we can now leave the hotel. There were several police officers that escorted us to the lobby of the hotel. We waited for a few minutes at the lobby while the driver of the consul get their car. We saw several fundamentalists that were still at the lobby. I saw one of them smiling a mocking triumphant smile as we walked out of the hotel.

When we arrived at the house of the consul, Ging got a call from the Urgent Action Fund for Women, telling her that they would be booking and pay for our return tickets. I then told Aernout that there was no need to buy our tickets anymore.

As soon as I lay down on the bed, I immediately fell asleep. My body just gave up from all the stress, tension and terror.

Saturday, 27 March

Since our flight back to Manila was in the late afternoon, we decided to buy souvenirs before going to the airport.

After buying our souvenirs, we got our stuff from the house of the consul and went straight to the hotel in a taxi. We were too early for our flight. JJ and Hender decided to buy some Indonesian delicacies. Hender told me that while they were at the store, someone asked her where they were from. When she said “from the Philippines”, the attendant told her, “Oh, the Conference?” We felt a bit scared.

When we were about to enter the airport, we saw Tesa, Myrza, and their little daughter arrived. Tesa told us that the lives of the local participants might be endangered as the fundamentalists got hold of the list of the name of all the participants.

Sunday, 28 March

We knew that the Surabaya crisis wasn’t finished yet. When we were back in Manila, we found out that the office of the Gaya Nusantara, the local organizer, was sealed by the fundamentalists and the staff are now working at home. Moreover, the Ministry of Religious Affairs are now considering to file criminal charges against the local organizers. The crime: Blasphemy.

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“What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas,” the cliché goes. But we know that this isn’t true with Surabaya for the terror, the pain, the tension we experienced in Surabaya are lingering on. Some of us are still trying to process what happened. Tears were shed and are still continue to be shed by others. Personally speaking, I can still feel the trauma and I’m afraid I am making my boyfriend unfairly experience the effects of this trauma by making mountains out of ant hills – hopefully, his patience and understanding will not run out sooner than the pace of my full recovery.

What happened in Surabaya is one of those ominous signs that religious fundamentalism is on the rise. What happened in Surabaya is a victory that will surely inspire those people who are against our existence to strengthen their delusion that their delusions have more right to exist in this world than us. But what happened in Surabaya will also be a source of strength to those who are still finding the courage to stand up.

This is a reminder that our work is not yet done and how much work is still waiting for us. Wake up! This ordeal is telling us. Wake up and reclaim your freedom!


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My warmest gratitude:
To the local organizers for doing their best! Your bravery is admirable!

To the honorary Philippine consulate in Surabaya, thank you for fetching us from the hotel and for sheltering us.

And to Aernout Schram de Jong, my ever-supportive friend, affectionate lover, and reassuring warmth, thank you for staying with me all throughout this ordeal by calling me almost every 30-minutes. This ordeal made me realize how deeply in love I was with you and how deeply you cared for me…

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Sass Rogando Sasot is a transpinay transgender rights activist. She is one the Communication Officers in Asia of ILGA; a columnist for Outrage Magazine, the Philippines first online LGBTZine, and one of founders of the Society of Transsexual Women of the Philippines (STRAP), the first transgender rights and support advocacy group in the Philippines.